Sunday, February 12, 2012


I am tired and feeling weak from this struggle, trying to overcome and have joy and find the meaning in it all. But test after test after test just gets hard. It wears one down. I feel like I'm hitting a wall...or maybe banging my head against one! I so long for this part to be over. I am grateful for the wait because in it I found God's heart as well as my own, I have found a fight and a strength that come from waiting... but friends, I am just wishing this wait could be done. I won't ever give up and as long as God gives me strength I will continue to stand strong for my children, I will do what it takes but my prayer is for Jesus to bring them home. This longing to meet them can't be stuffed down anymore. This wait is long and tedious and painful but it has not been wasted. Please pray with me for enough strength to carry me until the time is right. I don't want to rush my time and I want everything that God has for me, but I need strength to hang on to that.


  1. Praying for you, dear friend. You are right, the wait isn't wasted - but it would be wonderful for this season of your life to be done with...

  2. All I can think, when I think of your wait... is that God must think you are very very strong! My wait is short and I am losing it...

    You have grown so much through this, I think you are amazing.

  3. Hi! I'm so glad you found and commented on my blog, because from that I found your blog! It almost amazed me when I first saw that you are on an adoption journey, and it was a real confirmation to me because The Lord has awakened in me a huge desire this past year to adopt and to care for foster children as well. I'm only 22 and not married, and don't have a man in my life right now, so I am waiting and hoping in the Lord to bring these dreams to fruition. Reading your blog is so encouraging. He is so faithful and I love the way He leads us. Wow! Also, I felt like sharing this song with you today, I'm not sure if you have heard of Misty Edwards, but I felt that this song would be very relevant and timely for you!!

    I am praying for you and your husband, and your children! May you find blessing, favor and open doors in every place your feet step. <3 Hannah