Tired

I am tired and feeling weak from this struggle, trying to overcome and have joy and find the meaning in it all. But test after test after test just gets hard. It wears one down. I feel like I'm hitting a wall...or maybe banging my head against one! I so long for this part to be over. I am grateful for the wait because in it I found God's heart as well as my own, I have found a fight and a strength that come from waiting... but friends, I am just wishing this wait could be done. I won't ever give up and as long as God gives me strength I will continue to stand strong for my children, I will do what it takes but my prayer is for Jesus to bring them home. This longing to meet them can't be stuffed down anymore. This wait is long and tedious and painful but it has not been wasted. Please pray with me for enough strength to carry me until the time is right. I don't want to rush my time and I want everything that God has for me, but I need strength to hang on to that.