Monday, November 19, 2012

"He will laugh"

I can't believe I am writing this post. I honestly did not know if this day would ever come. It's not that I lost hope completely but I had recently resigned myself to the fact that this adoption might just take a few more years. But, Guess what????????? WE GOT THE CALL !!!!!!!!!!! It is a 6 month old boy from Ethiopia. God is so good and before I talk anymore, I need to give him the glory for this little boy. It is because of him that he is.

So here is the story.

This past summer we had begun to grow weary of waiting on this adoption, as you can see from reading earlier posts. I had alluded in one post that maybe the ship had sailed and it was time to move on. What I didn't say was that we were beginning a new adoption process. We had heard that Hungary had opened in Canada for adoptions and since that is where Arnie's family is from, we had decided to look into it. We spent the summer updating our paperwork from Ethiopia but also beginning paperwork for an adoption from Hungary. Our homestudy just seemed to drag on and on. It seemed we had to wait for everything! Two weeks ago we finally received our completed homestudy. I immediately sent it to the government for their approval. The average time frame is 4-8 weeks. A few days after I had sent it, we got a phone call from our agency saying that the government workers had called them to say we were missing a paper for the homestudy... the paper that gives us approval to do the homestudy in the first place!! My husband called me and said this, "You need to call Christian Adoption back because our Hungarian adoption is on hold because we forgot to do something". There is a rule of thumb in adoption, never use the words "adoption" and "on hold" in the same sentence. I immediately freaked out. I was so angry that day, angry at the paperwork, angry at myself and angry at God. I had a conversation with my husband about being angry with God. I didn't understand that if He loved adoption so much and told us to fight for the orphans, why then everywhere we turn we see red tape! I didn't stay angry too long though. I have some great friends who have stood by me in everything and on this particular day, they knew just what to say :) So we did the missing paper and sent it in, problem solved and we were ready to move on. At this point everything seemed impossible. I had my eyes set on waiting for our Hungarian homestudy to be approved so I was "on hold" so to speak. I just kept thinking about Christmas and spending it with my family and was hopeful that in the new year maybe then we could get a referral. I had spoken with a few people about our recent plans, but I had recently talked about just longing for our Ethiopian adoption to be finished before we opened another door. I wanted so badly to be finished with the first one, the one we started with before moving on. 

Friday November 16, 2012
I spent the day at my sister's house making cake pops for a fundraiser. We finished around 2pm and I headed home to prepare for the bible study I was supposed to be leading that evening. I sat at the table with my book and some food when my husband called me. He asked me where I was and then said, "Ok, I'm coming home." I thought nothing of it. About 10 minutes later, he walked in the front door, and sat down at the table. With tears in his eyes, he grabbed my hand. At this point my stomach dropped. The last time he looked at me like that was when he had to tell me my dog had died. He doesn't usually have intense emotion, so when my husband cries it is for a reason. He looked at me and said, "It's a 6 month old boy." WHHHHHAAAAAAAATTTTTTTTTTTT ??????????????? Now you can insert some screaming and some NO WAY's a few ARE YOU SERIOUS's and some more crying. Never in my wildest dreams did I think we would get a baby. Well I secretly hoped for one but I just didn't think that that would ever happen for us. After I danced, jumped, fist pumped the air, I gained enough composure to find a phone, or maybe that was my husband? Anyways, we called the social worker to find out the details... and more importantly to see our little man for the first time. I had enough brain cells to videotape the conversation and to video us seeing his little face for the first time.
 Instant love. This handsome little man was who we fought for all these years. He was the reason we gave our blood, urine, fingerprints, time, money, tears, prayers. He is the reason we didn't give up. And he is laying there with the most handsome smile, arms wide open as if to say, "come and get me!!"I was speechless, literally had the breath taken out of me. I couldn't form a sentence, just shock and joy and disbelief, this little guy is for us!!!
On wednesday, after I had my meltdown over that paper, I searched adoption quotes. I wanted to find something to help me keep fighting and this is the quote I posted on facebook:

“Be assured that if God makes you wait longer than you wish, it is only to make the blessing all the more precious.” 

I cried when I read it, It hit me in the heart. I knew God would be faithful, I knew it would be hard but I knew He had a plan for us. If only I knew that plan would start to unfold only two days later! 
Our God is good. It wasn't easy to wait, in fact it was painful and it outright sucked, but Jesus never left me. I'm not sure how I can put this into words. He didn't let me sink too low but he did allow me to feel the pain. He let me feel the hole in my heart, I think because He wanted to fill it. Something I learned about God is that He loves to be the one who we fill the holes in our hearts with. SO many times, I couldn't handle the wait and the pain, but He was ALWAYS faithful to pick me up and help me keep fighting. All those times I thought that He was not fighting on our behalf, I can see now that He was busy picking me up off the floor and making me strong enough to get up and fight some more. He was fighting through me.
I can't tell you how hard it was to be the only one without a child, how badly I wanted to be a mom. How hurtful it was to not only have lost my mom at a young age, but then not be able to become a mom. I shed many tears over this. But no matter how hard the storm would hit, there was Jesus sleeping in my boat, calling me over, looking at me and saying, "Come and rest with me Daughter, I've got it all figured out!" 
And He did, he is here, my sweet little boy... I just can't believe it.
Oe of the first things I said when we got off the phone with the social worker was, "He needs a name!" My husband said we needed to pray about it so I said, "Jesus what's His name!!??" Are little son's name is Isaac. It means, "he will laugh". But more than that he was the promised son to Abraham and Sarah. That story often got to me. Their wait, my wait, God's faithfulness. Sarah seemed to be unloving and seemed to be full of anger over her situation but it says, "Now the Lord was gracious to Sarah as he had said, and the Lord did for Sarah what he promised." Not only the miracle that Isaac's birth was, the story that comes after also gets to me. Abraham was called to lay his only son on the alter. I can't tell you the amount of times I have had to lay my child on the alter. My desire, my greed, my selfishness, I had to lay it down in order to receive back what God had for me. I often thought of if I never had a child, would I still love Jesus. I look back over this year and I am happy. I resolved in my heart that not a day would be wasted. That my life would not be completed because of a child, but that it would be completed because of Jesus. I can say that my life is so full, and now with Isaac... I may just be bursting at the seems!!!! I can't wait to post pictures of this sweet little man. He is so precious.
On my way home from my sister's house on friday, I was talking to God about my future child. I asked him if our child could be cute. He didn't have to be "worldly" cute but I had to think he was cute. It was a selfish prayer I know... but for some reason Jesus decided not only would he give us a cute son, but that he would pick the cutest baby in all of Ethiopia to be our son!! He is perfect in every way and we could not be happier. 
And since I can't post pictures of him until we get a court date, I will post our Christmas photo our friend took this year (It will have to change now though :)

So your next question is, "when do you get him?" We will have to wait for a court date now. I've seen some as quick as 2 months and some as long as 8 months. So we ask you to please pray that our baby can come home as soon as possible! I just want him home right away, but I know the timing will be perfect!

Thank-you to everyone who prayed and fought along side us, we have a son because of you. Isaac has an army behind him, I can't wait to tell him all about it one day!!!


  1. Amazing post, and amazing story of God's faithfulness!! Congrats you two, he's a lucky boy!

  2. Oh Bekah!!! so so so happy for you guys! Praise God!

    Laura D

  3. Crying my eyes out. I am SO thrilled for you. LOVE his name! I can't even type lol! Bawling with joy for you!!!! Must coffee soon!

  4. So so awesome. I'm so overjoyed for you! A quick court date Lord!

  5. I am so excited for you both!!!! God IS always good and Isaac will be worth the wait. I pray the rest goes quickly!!!

  6. We've heard about your journey through Kevin & Erin and are so thrilled to hear this news! Welcome Isaac! God is good!

  7. Mommy and Daddy!!!
    Congratulations seems such an empty word at this point.
    PRAISE GOD for this and for crossing all those t's, dotting all those i's and opening doors for Isaac to come home and laugh with you forever!!!
    Thank you for allowing us to be part of Isaac's village.

  8. Oh WOW Rebekah!!! That is such wonderful news! It is beyond spectacular to see a referral for a Mission of Tears family, since we are also still waiting for referral! I pray that Isaac will be home with you soon - I can't wait to hear all about your journey!

  9. Oh bekah that just made me cry. That is so beatiful beyond words! He is so blessed to have such wonderful parents(and auntys), he is the luckiest boy in the world! I love him soooo much already!

  10. You've been on my mind these past couple of months, Rebekah. And God's faithfulness has proved itself again. Relish in the blessing and the miracle and the joy that is YOUR SON. Congratulations hardly seems to express my elation for you. Many blessings and prayers as you WAIT FOR COURT!!!!!!!

  11. Congrats Bekah!! Or should I say "Mommy" I remember after we got our referral and you referred to me as that.. I was so caught up in the excitment, and no one referred to me as a Mommy until you did!! Now it's your turn and you are going to be such a great Mommy!! Hoping you get a speedy court date, so you can hold that little cutie in your arms!!


  12. Thank-you everyone for your kind words:) We are so blessed!!!!!!!!

  13. YAH!!!!! So happy for you both! What a long journey it has been - I'm so glad it is nearing and end. Can't wait to follow along on these next steps with you.

  14. We couldn't be happier for you, Bekah! What a long wait... but worth every tear and sigh! I can't wait to hear that you have a court date. :)

  15. I am like your husband in that I almost never cry. But when we got the phone call from the US that we had been chosen and then phoned my wife to tell her......I couldn't hold back any longer. It was one of the best moments if my life to share the news with her, my love!! We had a super long wait (and still waiting for Ethiopia btw) so we applied to the States in the meanwhile. We are sooooo thankful for our little guy, Noah Nathaniel (a name we chose after meeting him at 2days old -- means Peaceful, Gift from God, which not only suits his demeanor but also the sense of true peace that we felt in our souls becoming his parents!)

    We are in grande prairie. Feel free to contact me at

    We hope to still see Ethiopia through soon too!!

    Congrats to you two on the happy times ahead! Such a feeling cannot be described when talking about seeing little eyes looking up at you and knowing that you are now in charge of him. You want to squeeze him, you want to protect him, you want to give him every blessing you can think of. It's amazing! Enjoy your journey!

  16. Arnie and Bekah, Arie and I just got home from vacation and I am sitting here reading your blog and crying! GOD IS GOOD!!! I am so thankful that your son has been born and is just waiting to come home to you! I am excited to see you guys and hug you and also excited for the day when we get to meet Issac! Praying now for God's speed in bring Issac to his new home and loving parents and family! Blessings Megan and Arie Schuring