God Found Us You

I received this book as a Christmas gift from my sister, Amie. I also received it a few months ago from my sister, Suzie. I am keeping both copies because I love it so much. I can't believe how perfectly it describes what is in my heart. I bawled like a baby the first time I read it...now I want to share it with you!

Little Fox cuddled up to Mama Fox one night and said sleepily, "Mama, tell me again about the day I came home."

"Oh, yes," Mama said with a smile. "That is my favorite story of all. When God found us you, it made me the happiest mother in the world." "Just by comin' home?" Little Fox asked with a yawn. "Especially by coming home," Mama said.

"For so long, I dreamed of you," she said, snuggling closer. "Bout me?" "About you. I dreamed of how you would look, smell, even what you would sound like. And every day I thought of how wonderful it would be to hold you in my arms."

"I started seeing you everywhere, in the leaves of the giant oak and in the bark of the pine. Even in the stars! Oh, how I longed for the day that you would arrive, when God would find us you."

"And then I came?" "Oh, no. No matter how much I prayed it would happen, I still had to wait." "You waited and waited and waited?" "And waited. But I knew that someday you'd arrive, when God would find us you."

"it made it hard to see other mamas with their children," she said like she was telling a secret. "You were lonely for me?" "Very. I could not wait until the day you'd come, the day when God would find us you."

"I'd go up to the cliffs and watch for you. I stood there day...

After day...

After day."

"Did you ever want to give up?" Little Fox asked. "Sometimes," Mama said, rubbing Little Fox's cheek with hers. "But I trusted that God knew you, and knew me, and knew when we'd fit perfectly together."

Little Fox paused, "How come I couldn't stay with the mother who had me?" "She must have had very big reasons to give you up. SHe must have thought it was best for you." "Did she have fur like mine?" "Most likely." Mama smiled softly. "She must have been as beautiful as you are handsome."

"I think she prayed like crazy that you would be safe, Little Fox, I think she prayed for me as much as I prayed for her." Mama's voice got all whispery. "And god answered both our prayers." "I came then? to you?" Mama nodded, happy tears in her eyes. "You came then. When God found us you, you made me the happiest mama in the world."

Little Fox smiled and then thought for a moment, "Mama, will you be my forever mama?"

"Always and forever. No matter what," she promised. "This is where you belong. Here, with me, my sweet cild. You are mine. The best gift in the whole wide world. I will always love you and treasure you and celebrate the day you came, the day that God found us you."

Mama Fox tucked Little Fox into bed and he giggled through her lsat kisses. They said their prayers and whispered, "Nighty night," just like they always did. Little Fox was glad that he had a cozy home and good food and a mama who loved him very, very much. And he went to sleep dreaming about the day he came to the big woods...

and smelled his mama...

and knew he was loved...

and finally was home.

"When God found us you," Mama Fox whispered in his dreams, "you made me the happiest mama in the world."

Visit to BC

We are in Vancouver for  a week visiting my sister, brother in law and niece. It has been good to have a break from our way too busy lives, no worries, no stress, no responsibilities! Unfortunately it is going by way too fast. On the adoption front, we are still waiting for our fingerprint results, then we can send all our papers in. After they will send them to Ethiopia, and when they arrive we will officially be ready for referral!

A visit to the Lighthouse Park 

My beautiful niece Dakary

My sister, Amie and husband, Jared

The Lighthouse

Christmas at Mosaic

Arnie and Stacy

Over the past two months, Arnie and I have taken up the role of Managers of the Winter Warming Centre at Mosaic. This is a program funded by the government and runs from November to April, just for the winter months. The goal is to keep people off the streets in the winter, give them a place to be while it's cold out and a ride to a shelter for the night. This has been the most challenging thing we have ever done, but it is worth it. This was a Christmas party put on by the Mosaic centre last week. These are a few of the people we have grown to know and love.

Keith, Rollie and Arnie

Doug

Rollie with his friend Vern

Christmas hampers made by a church for all the people at the party

Backpacks handed out to the people who don't have a home

Brad, Vicky and baby Oren

The 12 papers of Christmas

Well it seems I have spoken too soon once again. I received an email yesterday saying that Imagine did get my update in the mail BUT I have to update all my paper work!! I was only told to update my police checks, child interventions checks, employment letters and medicals. Well someone failed to mention the 12 other papers that need to be updated as well. Arnie and I were so frustrated I exclaimed, "It's like the 12 days of Christmas hahaha (in a very sad laugh) " to which Arnie sang, "and one test for H--I--V." We laughed in a tired, your kidding me right??, kind of laugh. The kicker is, we can't get a referral until all 12 (times 2 people) papers are completed. So I have been on the phone for 2 days booking appointments to get all our papers done. We need HIV tests, a list of papers notarized, Interpol police checks (fingerprints), two new reference letters, notice of assessments and some power of attorney  and such papers signed. I have an appointment booked for almost everyday next week! What a holiday! Plus my arm hurts from my Yellowfever shot today... I will stop whining now and look on the bright side, once these papers are done, we can get a referral any day!! I know the timing will be perfect so I will try to remember that when I am completing all this annoying paper work. I have a feeling I will get that referral, look at our child, and forget about all the pain it took to get me to them.

Today we went to the Mosaic Christmas party, we brought Rollie along. Arnie and I were grouching out from all the stress of our lives, when Rollie came in the car and turned it all upside down.

                                                      
                                                        This is Rollie praising Jesus

                                                            This is Rollie praying.

Jesus reminded me of the verse in Matthew: And he said: "I tell you the truth, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven." I thank Rollie for reminding me what the kingdom of heaven is all about: joy and love, simplicity and purity of a child. Thanks Rollie!

I spoke too soon (or cried too soon)

On my way to work today I looked over down town, I saw the building where my update was and I prayed. I asked that if there was any way, be it the paper falls on the ground and gets noticed or Anne has a thought she has to sign our update, could we get our update signed today. I wasn't praying in a desperate way but just asking if it fits with His will for us. A few hours later Arnie called me at work and suer enough the update was in our mailbox!!!!!!!!! I had tears in my eyes while I tried to compose myself infront of the patients. I am so happy, I can't believe God answered my prayers with a Yes!!!! My Christmas present came early, I am so amazed. Although this is not a referral, it puts us next on the list for a 4 year old. I am at peace once again that God is in control, that He has a good plan and that nothing can stand in His way. I spoke too soon last night, if I only knew it was just about to land on my doorstep!

Update for Christmas

This year the only present I would like is our homestudy update signed by Anne Scully. You may think this is a simple request, but it feels like an impossible request. In July we started to think about changing our age request, we called our agency to find out what was all involved in this. Since our paper work was about to expire in November, we decided we would upgrade everything early. By the time we could actually get the social worker in to do our update it was October 1. We then waited until Nov. 1 to receive the signed and approved update from Christian Adoption. Since that date, the update has been in the hands of Anne Scully waiting for provincial approval. Everything waits for this approval, our age request will not chnge in the agency until they receive this update. It feels hopeless to write about this now. It is completely and utterly out of my control. I know that God has a plan and he has a perfect child waiting for us, but it is just so hard to wait for this update approval. I want to cry. I am praying it comes in time for Christmas, but I am not holding my breath. I guess I need to learn patience again for the 1000th time. I am trying to be victorious in this waiting game, but today I feel defeated.

18 referrals this month!!!

The good news is in, there were 18 referrals in the month of November. This is incredible, we have not seen this many referrals in one month ever! As for us, we are still waiting for our provincial approval. I emailed Anne Scully this morning to check on the status of our update. I'm not sure if this will help or annoy her, but I thought it couldn't hurt. After all it is our update and it is taking FOREVER!! It is amazing how much patience is needed when you feel so close. I am reminded everyday to finish this race strong, to keep trusting God and to have faith. It seems it gets harder as it feels closer. We continue to pray for court dates and visas for all the referred families as well as more referrals...maybe with our name on it this time :)

Yesterday was our 19th month waiting since our dossier arrived in Ethiopia. I'm going to start a show...I think I'll call it 19 months and counting.... only it will be super boring and no one will watch it!!