Monday, September 6, 2010

Day 895

We have been waiting for many many days for a child. We have been through many ups and downs in this process, but when looking back, I have to confess we have learned a lot. Many days have proven to be miserable and desperate, but many days have shown to be full of hope and joy.

Hebrews 4:2-3 We received the promises as those people in the wilderness, but the promises didn’t do them a bit of good because they didn’t receive the promises with faith. If we believe, we’ll experience that state of resting. But not if we don’t have faith.

I equate the miserable and desperate days to a lack of faith. Never have I been tried as hard as I have these past 895 days. I am learning though, that without faith, I will not rest. I have had days were I start to panic or I become bitter because things are not working at my pace or on my schedule. Then I have days were I am reminded that the God of the universe is on my side and he desires to fulfill my dreams, in his timing. These are the days I am at rest, filled with peace that I am on the right track, knowing that the day our baby comes, will be the day God planned for them to finally be in our arms.


  1. This is so touching! Ur so right... God's timing in perfect! U can count on Him to be faithful to His promises! -leah

  2. As hard as the waiting is.... you will see someday, when you hold that child in your arms that the timing is right and God had a plan all along.

  3. There is such a fine balance between lacking in faith - and working through pain isn't there?. I learned with A's adoption that I had to allow the pain of failed dreams and empty arms their rightful place in my life (to press into the pain and not just try to push it aside) so that I could work through the grief I needed to. It made me a healthier person, more ready to receive her when she came home.

  4. The waiting will be worth it soon :)

    Just emailed you- let me know if you have questions re: the blog makeover!